Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Sincere? What Is That?

This morning while entering the office, I followed a group of 5-6 people to the main door. Now, in our office it is mandatory to swipe the access card at the door even if the door is already open…in other words no tailgating. I and a friend, much to the amusement of our other friends, swipe our access cards every single time we encounter a door. And this morning, among all the people who gatecrashed (so to speak), the guard picked me to remind that the card needs to be swiped (when I already had!)

What really got me wondering about sincerity in addition to this morning’s incident is another independent incident yesterday where my sincerity was severely questioned. Why is sincerity so hard to take? Why are the ones who follow the rules all the time picked and questioned? Why is someone who always means what she says misunderstood and punished for it? Why is it so hard to believe that for some people their hearts, minds, words and actions are in perfect sync? Is it because others by themselves are hardly ever sincere and we see the world as we are? Could it be that we look for twists and turns in someone’s words or just plain disbelieve them because we are used to being distrusted with our words…because we never mean what we say?

People believe the most frivolous of rumours and talk, the most casually delivered statement accompanied with the bat of an eyelid…but when you beseech someone to believe what you say, something that comes from deep down inside…a goodwill wish, a prayer, affection…they take it with tons of salt and try and derive what your hidden motive might be. In fact you are told on your face that you sound insincere. Sometimes one takes it in one’s stride…at others, it hurts.

So how should one express oneself in that case? With eyelids fluttering and fake smiles? Or with the same old defeated sincerity?

I ask as if I knew any better than to be sincere…misunderstood, mistaken but sincere.

3 Thinkers Pondered:

Anonymous said...

I think you need to take a chill pill...

Anupama said...

Anonymous,

Thanks for the suggestion and for stopping by...

Vibhushan said...

Yeah. Take a chill pill gurl. Doubting Thomases never ever went beyond doubting... These are lesser mortals, pardon them for they don't really know what they are doing :)
They are doing what they are best at, you continue doing what you are best at. Neki kar, dariya me daal, and chill!